Haven't Had A Dream

Some days I'm not sure what I'm doing exactly. I didn't do much today. I got stood up by a client. I did some reading about css and cms, wrote emails. If you spent the day in the office, I realize this doesn't seem so bad, but I have too many days like that. I feel pathologically lazy sometimes and there are so many things I want to do.

I need to start a new business because, well because I want more money to be honest, but also because what I do is largely uninteresting to me. I don't hate it, but well I want to do more.

I need to volunteer more. There are all these people that have so much less going for them than me, and I want to spend more time with them. I would have really liked to have done something with the developmentally disabled for a living, but it didn't work out like that. So, I need to volunteer. I used to, but I get distracted easily.

I need to cook more. I'm going to make a nice corn chowder tomorrow or Sunday, whenever I have the time.

My friend loaned me a guitar because I've been without one for a while. I need to get past bar chords this time round.

I need to read more, write more, learn more. I don't seem to ever have the time for this. I feel stunted intellectually these days. I know someone who I think stopped learning and I think this has contributed to his decline. This scares the living fuck out of me.

Damn, I'm in a mood today, ugh. Sorry I have nothing more interesting to write.