I Should Not Smoke The Sensemilla

The reason I don't get stoned anymore is because every other time I do, I get very unsettled, I guess in the parlance of the professionals, I get paranoid and antisocial. This is kind of annoying, primarily because I still want to smoke pot from time to time. Of course, this isn't unusual, plenty of people who used to smoke a lot of pot say the same thing. It goes in line with my general thinking on psychoactive drugs , there's a time in your life you can do them, and then there isn't. It differs from person to person, so it goes. It also underscores my thirtysomething goal of becoming a pill popping alcoholic.

Anyway, last night was one of the rare times that I decided to get high, and unfortunately, it was one of the times my brain decided to get paranoid. So, I made my way home from a show a bit early, and entered my building all set to just chill out and watch something really stonerish like the X-Files on the telly, except for the fact that my forty something neighbor was lugging forty something boxes up the stairs. Of course I had to help her, I'm nearly twice her size, 20 years younger, and I think she may have a limp or something.

Of course I had to help her, despite the fact that small talk with her was lower on my list of things to do than cleaning the toilet that time. I also wasn't sure that my coordination was really up to par at the time. So, I hauled the remaining boxes up the stairs as she told me a story about her father who wanted them out of the house, and I told her about how my mom was the same way, and then I went inside, and very stoned, I tried to pay attention to the Mets game, something that was really beyond me at the time.