A Little Dream Of Me

Every once in a while you get a dream that just sort of leaves you saying what the fuck?

I was in a heavenly place, the cloud floor thing was going on and it was blue sky daylight. The kind of blue sky that it is now a cliche to associate with 9/11. I had taken a train there and I was discussing my choices with a group of enlightened people, largely stereotypes of wizened eastern figures. They were obviously influenced by certain comic books as well. I'm going to scan them in, in a minute.

I had been accompanied to this place by two friends, a girl that I loved, and another. There may have been some mixed feelings there. Neither of these people were specifically anyone, which I guess says something about where I'm at right now.

It was explained to me that I had a choice and could either stay and reach enlightment, or leave and never return. If I stayed I could one day return to earth but everything would be different. Things would never be the same between me and the girl, me and my friends.

I stayed and my friends left me. I was welcomed I think. As the train was getting ready to leave, I changed my mind and I ran to the platform. I didn't even think I would make that train, but there would be another, and this seems like quite an assumption, considering the stakes. Fortunately, I got there at the last minute.

No one begrudged me being on the train, but by the looks in people's eyes, I wasn't very welcome since the train was very crowded. I was surprised, and I was exhausted emotionally, on the verge of losing it. I couldn't find my friends anywhere for a minute

Soon I found the girl and collapsed in tears hugging her. My other friend was nowhere around. I think he might too have been me.